Did I Make The Right Choice ?

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a while I've just been a little busy with life. I have a new issue at hand. Half way threw last year's school year I started doing homeschooling because I was missing a lot of school being sick due to my PCOS. Since I was missing a lot of school it caused my grades to start slipping so homeschooling was a good option for me. While doing my homeschooling my grades were improving and it was nice not having to worry about the days of school I missed. Even when I wasn't feeling well I could still do my school work and in the comfort of my own home too! The only downfall of homeschooling was my social life. All of my friends had told me they wouldn't forget about me and they'd still always be there, wasn't that a lie. I lost way over half of my friends and I was feeling extremely lonely. I couldn't help feeling like I was missing out on my "teenage years" with school dances and other school functions. I also felt really out of the loop with my friends. After a ton of begging and pleading with my mom we'd finally come to the agreement to let me go back to regular school as long as I agreed I wouldn't switch anymore. My mom kept telling me that I'd regret this decision, although at the time it was all I wanted. I was so excited to start school back with all my friends and they seemed pretty stoked that I was coming back too. This school year started out okay and I didn't seem to be missing that much school. Now we're in our 2nd 9 weeks of school and I've already missed 13 days of school. My teachers always make comments about me being absent but one thing they don't understand is that I don't choose to be sick. Trust me, if I could be healthy and stay healthy I sure would, no body enjoys being sick. Because of all my absences my grades have gone right back down the drain. I do plan on furthering my education after high school and majoring in some sort of journalism and communications so my grades are fairly important. I also wish I could say that I'm enthusiastic about school and my classes but I regret to inform you that I'm not. I thought that with me going back to school I would gain my friends back and be back into the loop. I've now come to the realization that it's not that easy. I lost some friends that I will never gain back. I also have now realized that some of the people I was friends with is not people I want to associate myself with. It seems like all of these people i once considered my friends have changed and that's not necessarily for the best. I still feel just as out of the loop as I did last school year in my own home. Another issue is that while I'm at school I seem to get really depressed. I feel as though I can't concentrate on my school work when all I want to do is sleep. Our school has a brand new building this year and has really gotten strict with it's rules. The teachers hand out detentions like they're suckers, it's a tad bit absurd. I feel like I'm always getting in trouble for things that I don't do or I'm constantly getting accused of things. For all of these reasons that I've just stated I feel as though I made a terrible decision going back to regular school. Homeschooling has its ups and downs but I now feel like it was the right decision for me. I wish that I could have seen then what I see now. I sat down with my mom and had a conversation about my feelings on school and she agrees with me, therefore she's given me a choice. I now have the option (as long as my counsler Sue agrees) to leave regular school once again and go back the homeschooling. If I do choose to do homeschooling again it will be my final decision in my schooling. I will eathier stay with homeschooling till I graduate or stay in regular school. I know that homeschooling has it's own challenges upon its self, but it will help me boost my grades. Where I am getting sick at least once every two weeks I feel that this would be the best decision. Then again I also have to think of the downfalls, what if I start feeling lonely again? What if I loose the few friends I've started to gain back? I have a tough decision ahead of me that will acquire hours upon hours of thought. Hopefully in two weeks when I talk to Sue she'll help make my decision clear. If any of you have any thoughts or you have an opinion on my dilemma please feel free to post a comment. I could really use all the advice I can get right now. Thanks guys, for listening to me rant. (: